Past Few Days

Hi! I figured it was time to update again. lol To speed everyone up fairly quickly, Saturday (the 17th), my family and I all went shopping to Commerce GA. It was alot of fun and we found some deals too. :) Sunday, or yesterday, I got up, went to church, and then went and ate lunch at my parents house. It was soooo good! I love macaroni and cheese. lol My sister and I took some pictures of each other in the back yard, because we needed some new ones for our myspace of course. I watched football after lunch for a little while. Yeah, I said football. lol Ever since I spent that Sunday w/ Leonard and his family I've been hooked on watching it. I used to hate football too, but now I actually enjoy it. Maybe it's because the fact it reminds me of Leonard, which is probaly the reason, but I still enjoy it. I dont completely get it but that's okay. So, that afternoon I did some stuff around my house and then Victoria and I hung out for a while. We went to that knew Academy sports place and checked out the guys. haha Just kidding! Then we went to Big Lots and I did some Christmas shopping. Oh guess who I got to talk to for a while.... Aaron. We havent talked in forever, but when we do we always have something to talk about. It's great because he understands me and it's never a silent second when we're on the phone together. :) He's coming to see me eithert his weekend or the next. I cant wait!! Well, I had dinner at my parents house again, because Dad had me pick up a pizza for us all since Mom was gone to homegroup. We also watched Pirates of the Caribbean because JJ (my little brother) wanted to watch the pirate sword fighting. lol Alright so here's what made my night and completely shocked me. I had sent Leonard a myspace message around lunch time yesterday. I never expected to get a reply back honestly, plus since he's not talking to me, but I actually did later on that night. I was really, really surprised! Don't take me wrong though, I was glad he did. But the reason I sent him the message was I was trying to help myself, in an attempt to try and let him go, as well as explain some things to him that needed to be said. Like I said before it's just so hard for me to let someone go when I don't understand what happened. And especially someone who means soooo much to me, and to be truthful I don't want to let him go but I dont know what to do. I can't just wait around hoping he'll come to his senses one day and fall for me again, but then again I'm not the kinda girl who gives up without a fight either. Anyways, in his message he was apologizing for the text he had sent from Joshs' phone a while back and messing with me like that. It still hurts me though to be honest, and I still don't understand what went wrong between us, but he said he didn't want to talk about what changed his mind. For all I know it could have been another girl or something. I mean I'm not going to be his re bound or whatever. If it was another girl, I'm not someone to play around with or do something just when you cant get anything else. I've already been used like that before and it really hurts. So ever again will I settle for anything less than what I deserve! Ah, I just really want to know what happened, but he wont talk about it. So anyways.... He did say he wanted to be friends but it took him a while to get over it. I do want to be friends with him though, I just dont know if he's going to be able to handle that. I mean I'll try my best because he does mean everything to me, even after all that's happened. By the way, I have no idea what he was getting 'over' because he's the one who stopped talking to me, for whatever reason he had. That's just stupid in a way if you ask me. What was there to get over when he's the one who did this to me, seriously? Guys, you cant live with the, and you sure can't live without them. lol But I'm done with them for good now, till I meet Mr Right and I'm sure as heck done trying to figure them out because it's pointless. Then a few mins after I had replied to his message he called me. I was shocked once again. We talked for about half an hour or so, well I'm the one who did like all the talking pretty much. I don't know why he want talk, but actually he's never been that talkative around me for some reason. I don't know if thats good or bad really. I am very glad I got to talk to him, I still don't know what to think, but in time everything will be okay. That was the extent of my past few days...

Lets see, now that I've got you all semi up to date, it's Monday obviously and it sure feels like it. Ugh! I cant wait till Wednesday is over because Thursday is Thanksgiving!!! =] Fooooodddd! lol I went to work this morning, as I usually do during the week.