Continuation of My Prince Charming

Alright, so I'll finally get you up to date on everything after this post. Hopefully! lol So the next time I post something it will be under the right date at least. Thank goodness, because I'm really perticular about dates, specially when they mean something to me.

Okay, so on November 1st (Thursday) we were able to see each other once again after not thinking we would get too. Of course it wasn't for very long, but it made me happy. :)

Then on the 2nd (Friday) I got to see him for a few minutes. After I had got off work I rode to his Shop so that I could see him before him and his Dad went fishing for the weekend. I didn't want him to leave either... but he had to. lol Also let me add it was a week today--that we have known each other. To be honest it feels like a whole lot longer.

On the 3rd (Saturday) I was off of work, thank goodness. I went and picked up my table that I had bought for my new house and then did a little shopping that morning for some other house items. I talked and texted Leo on and off all day though, of course. Gah, I missed him soooo much and it hadn't even been 24 hours yet. lol Then that afternoon I found out he was coming home earlier than they had planned and I was going to get to see him after all. :) That just made my day a whole lot better. I hung out with Victoria and Kimberly most of the day, and worked over at my new house, and then after dinner we went to the movies. It was me, Leo, my sister, Kimberly, and Ben. We saw Rush Hour 3, which was good but most of us had already seen it. After the movie was over I took my sister and Kimberly home and then Leo and I just hung out for a while.

The 4th (Sunday), wow, where to even begin at. It was the most amazing yet hardest day ever. It started off with me meeting him and his family at there Shop around 10:30am. Then I went to church with them and that was alot of fun. It was different to say the least though, but in a good way. I've never been to such a small church before. It was less than 20 people, and that was including the four of us and the preacher. lol I enjoyed it alot, I'll probably go back next Sunday to be honest with you. I've kinda strayed from going to church in the past several months but I really want to start back going somewhere.Well after church we went to the grocery store to get some things for lunch and then went to there house. Yes, way out in what felt like the boonies, but it was really nice. I cant wait to have a house of my own one day with a little family, out in the country, with animals and everything. It's just so peaceful.... One day it'll happen, but till then I'm satisfied with what I have. By the way, Leo cooked lunch and it was really good. We had fish (that they caught), real french fries, and hush puppies. Sunday's are there football watching days, so that's what we were doing most of the afternoon. I'm not to big of a football fan really but just being with him and his family was wonderful. The Panthers, which is his team, were playing against the Titans. The score ended up being 7-20, I believe. After it was over we walked around outside for a little bit and then left to go get my car at the Shop. On the way we had to stop and get gas at The General Store, and well Chase (yes, one of my sorta ex's) was there. I guess you could say I wanted to show off in front of him and I kissed Leo and all and it wasn't right. Because then Leo said I was using him and I never meant for it to come across like that at all. I'd never want to use him or hurt him in any way ever. He means so much to me! But after he said that I was upset and we didn't say a word to each other till we got to the Shop. Even then I could barely talk, I was just to upset. So here's the abbreviated version of what happened... He told me he had been thinking all afternoon and he thought it would be best if we were just friends for right now. I never thought I'd hear that come out of his mouth, not after the week we had together. I know were not going out, or dating, at least officially, but still. I couldn't believe I was hearing this, it completely shocked me. I couldn't say anything, I just sat there in tears, and with his arms around me, I had a million things running through my head. When I finally calmed down we talked a little, or I attempted to at least. He said that he though us just being friends right now would be for the best for both of us. He told me he didn't want to hurt me because I meant alot to him and there was no use rushing things. Which is all very true and I think by him saying that was the most respectful, honest, and meaningful thing I've ever been told. It's just in the back of my head I am so afraid of losing him that's what scares me the most, but he promised he would never leave me. I mean it's not like we both aren't crazy about the other, but he's right we do just need to slow down and get to know each other. There's more to a relationship than just physical things anyways. I mean now that I look back on it I see why all my other relationships really didn't work out for the most part--probably because that's all there was to them. You know? So I can do this and so can he, we're both strong and we both just need time. After all that we went to go meet up with my parents at my new house. They were working on some stuff over there trying to get it ready for me to move in. :) Yah! He got to meet my dad for the first time, which was good, and he's already met my mom a little. But we didn't stay over there that long and then we both had to go home. Well even after all that I still had amazing day.

I could just go on and on about him and probably never run out of things to say. He never fails to amaze me each and everyday with something. I mean it truly is the small things in life that mean the most to me. It doesn't matter if I'm the one driving or he is, he always opens the door for me. That just goes to show how much he respects me and also how wonderful his parents are. That's just one of the many things he does... Anyways I'm done boring you all to death with my 'love life'. lol I'll fill you in on more later I'm sure.