Dream

Hello! =] I figured it was about time to update everyone on whats going on in my life in the last few days. Well, since the 12 th (Monday) because now it's the 15 th. Yah, for Thursday because that means tomorrow is Friday. I know, I'm smart aren't I. lol Oh shut up! Anyways, things are going alright just working and all that fun stuff. Last night Ben came by and we watched TV for a while and just hung out and then Victoria spent the night with me again so I wouldn't be lonely. Which to be honest I'm enjoying being by myself. Well not to much has happened since well you know who and I have quit talking. I know y'all are still wondering why the heck I'm still even bringing him up after everything that's happened but I cant help it. You just have no idea how much Leo means to me, I cant even explain it. Speaking of Leo, I had the weirdest dream about him last night. It was really weird, and to add it was the only dream I've ever had of him, that I remember at least. All I can remember of it was he finally decided to meet me and talk about what was really going on, which I don't remember what all was said to be honest. Sorry, it was a dream! The next thing I know is were laying in bed and I kissed him and he just layed there like I wasn't even in the pitcher... and I got so upset and frustrated that I told him to just leave and never talk to me again. I was sick of his crap and what he had put me through that I was done for good this time. Well, so he left and next thing I remember was he was getting into his car and I flicked him off. I have no idea why but it was just a really weird dream. As you can tell! lol Then to add to all my hurt and frustrations with Leo, on the 13th (Tuesday) him and Josh decided to mess with me and play games with me. Yeah, that really pissed me off big time! I can understand Josh doing it but not Leo, I thought he was different for sure. But I guess friends don't fall far from the tree either. lol It really hurt me what they did. In a nut shell Josh texted me asking to come by and I was like I guess... and he goes can we make out? and i told him we'll see but that was really a NO. I just didn't want to be by myself. Anyways, before I could send him a text back saying I really didn't want him to come over because I'm through being used by him (Josh), I get a text from Leo saying I hope you have fun doing whatever when Josh gets there and to think I was feeling bad, don't worry about texting back I'd much rather you not. So come to find out it was either Leo texting from Josh's phone or both of them thinking they'd have some 'fun'. I hate to break it to em' it wasn't funny at all and I got really upset. To think that Leo would honestly stoop so low to doing that to me, I mean its exactly something Josh would do. I was just astonished that he did it to be honest. :'( I would still do anything to understand what went wrong or why he's being this way, but it's not looking to promising any more. I don't want it to happen like it did in my dream by any means but I do wish he'd just sit down and talk to me like a normal person and be a man about whatever the reason is. You know? Maybe one day, but till then I wont give up but at the same time I cant sit around wasting my time, hurting, and being miserable over this either. So I wont, I have enough to do in my own life as it is to be worried or upset about some guy. Like I said before if he's The One then he still will be in due time. So we shall see then. That enough about that, so I'm at work right now being bored. If you didn't notice that is. lol I better get back to doing something productive though. Oh one more thing... My excitement for the day was trying to catch a little mouse that was eating our chips. It was hilarious! lol Well, I'll keep you all updated on my life, because I know you all just love it. :)